I think i just wanna be a friend, the ‘just-always-a-friend’ as what I am now.
I think I want to stay that way because it’s waaaay safer and comforting.
To not think about the ‘what if’s’, ‘what is’, ‘how’, ‘when’and the most frustrating ‘why’s’.
To sleep at night without worrying about him, about us, and what’s best for us.
To wake up in the morning without that hopes of unexpected good morning messages from a person.
I just want to worry about me, and what’s best for me.
It’s painful to be in a situation where you expect more and can’t be given more.